Almost There

This may be one of the most iconic paintings around (and if you don't know it...I'm rolling my eyes at you right now!) it is also very symbolic of me and my life, right now. I feel like I'm almost there.
Almost. What a strange word. It can be used in almost every situation- see what I did there? ;) Almost done. Almost finished. Almost on time. Almost. After pushing and straining and struggling 'almost' seems to be the only word to describe it. When do I get to drop the 'almost'? I just want to be there. There seems like a good place. The people who are there, they made it through almost- and i'm jealous. I should be almost jealous, but almost doesn't work that way. The there-people, I wonder if they look back as us people stuck in almost and laugh. They sure as hell aren't giving advise or helping us! They must be having a party. I wonder if when I get there, will I join in the festivites? Or turn around and help pull some people free of almost.

I guess we'll never know, we'll have to wait and see. I can almost tell.

Use Your VOICE

Words-

I need new words,
It’s as if everything that I know has been used up.
I’m stuck, in muck that is so insatiate,
breaking free of the constraints of this meaningless-ness
is too hard to fathom.
Too hard to do.
I want… something new.

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Strangers -
words -
or texts -
all presuming to know me.

I’m masquerading as a dream catcher
yet I’m chasing dreams that don’t fit anywhere.

Tantrum

The road’s still moving,
Stumbling along-
re-evaluating
the things I thought mattered.

My trust issues
and broken dreams.
Do I want too much?

Again?

What is meant to be will be...

Life has a funny way of working it's way out.

Today I think that all the tears, and all the suffering really are something that we had to go through, but no matter what, whatever is meant to be will be. I feel like just taking a back seat, and waiting to see what happens, but I can't, because I still believe that we are the makers of our own destiny, but where is destiny going to lead us?

That I don't know right now, but hopefully soon I will.

Truth, it's so important, I just never had the strength to tell it. Who can say which is truth and which is the lie anyway. Nobody's impartial. Each view is somebody's lie.

I can't see too far ahead, but what I see now is not pretty...hopefully soon it will be pretty.